Blarg

Ugh, I’ve been way too busy for my liking past few days. Everyday I’ve done something and got up early. Well, ok, maybe not on Sunday when I spent the whole day in the sun reading my book (I started and finished Sophie Kinsella’s ‘Remember Me?’ in one day…yay me!) and for lack of a better word, got roasted. Yes, my face actually matched my hair (bright red). Oh, and also my arms. And my chest. And I was in pain when I had a bath and the bath pretty much sizzled when I got in. But with a bucket load of after-sun I went back to my normal pasty colour. Well, my nose hasn’t returned to normal. It’s still very red, but nothing a lot of foundation won’t cover

Work has been overly-insane thanks to the Easter holidays and kids being off from school and whatnot. Everyday we’re being rushed off our feet and I get home and collapse. But longer hours means more pay, which makes me happy this week I’ve done 27 hours which doesn’t sound like a lot, but it is for me.

And more hours means more money which means that this baby will be in my arms next week:

LOOK HOW PRETTY! It’s the Mike Dirnt Fender Squier Precision Bass. Ok, I’ve budgeted and I was £20 away from my target, but it actually turns out that I’ve got £53.95 to go. HURRY UP MONEY I NEED YOU! If anyone would like to sponsor me to get my bass, it would be much appreciated. I’d also offer you eternal love. I’m so desperate to get this bass. My Aria STB-something or other is just a pile of shit. One of the tone knobs has fallen off, where it was covered in stickers and I’ve taken them off, it’s now left all that gross residue that I can’t get off, it won’t connect to my amp properly, just a list of things that are wrong with it. It’s also 6 years old so it’s pretty old too. And has gone through a lot of battering.  But this new baby will be in my room in 3-4 days starting Tuesday.

The new bass which I will christen ‘Dirnt’ has everything I’m looking for in a bass. Firstly it’s precision, which means less treble, more bass which is a great contrast to a Jazz bass. Apparently, this particular bass is incredibly loud, which is definately something I look for. Louder=better. Compared to my other piece-of-crap-bass, this has only 2 knobs (volume and tone), whereas my other has three. (Not anymore since it fell off. Bad times) and also a side jack plate so I won’t have my lead obstructing my playing as much. EEEK!

So, at this particular moment in time I’m just chilling out listening to Johnny Cash with a cigarette after a hard day at work. I think I may go and make a Baileys Comet in the minute because it sounds like so much nom. FYI, it’s 1 1/2 shot Baileys, 1 shot Disaronno and top with cream. OMNOMNOMNOMNOM. I’ve actually gone cocktail crazy. I’ve got a constant supply of ice, and have stocked my spirit cupboard with Archers, Malibu, Disaronno, Baileys, vodka, Tia Maria (only used for Black Russian’s)…all the favourites! I just need a cocktail shaker.

Oh and I just found this:

It's life, Obama, but not as we know it.

LOL.

 

 

30 Song Challenge … in my own little way :) PART 3

Ok, so here’s the 3rd and final part of my little 30 Song Challenge installment. Here we go:

Song 21: A Song That You Listen To When You’re Happy

WHEN IT’S TIME TO PARTY, WE WILL PARTY HARD. To be honest, every song by Andrew WK just makes me happy. Every song by him is abouts partying and getting wasted and just having fun. No silly love songs, no deep mournful tracks about how much everyone hates him and his life is sad, he just cares about what he’s drinking tonight and how much fun it’s gonna be. My other favourite song by him is ‘We Want Fun’ where the lyrics are: We want fun and you might as well face it/We wanna have fun and we wanna get WASTEDDD!!! Such a tune.

Song 22: A Song That You Listen To When You’re Sad

This song I always listen to when I’m sad. Some people play happy songs when they’re sad, I don’t. When I’m sad, I don’t play perky and chipper songs, I play melancholy songs so that I can drown in my own misery. When I’m low, I listen to depressing songs and eventually, I’ll come back up again. For some reason it helps, and this song always makes me cry and I love to play it on guitar. It’s such a heart-wrenching song, the vocals are incredible and you can hear the pure talent of Justin Furstenfield seeping out. Sometimes it’s weird how one persons song-writing can really pull on your heart strings.

Song 24: A Song That You Want To Play At Your Wedding

Ahh, love songs. Sometimes I love ‘em, sometimes I hate ‘em. At the moment, I’m kinda loving them. This is one of Green Day’s most calming songs, and love just kinda oozes from every orifice when I hear this song. When I first heard this song, tears sprang to my eyes. It’s such a beautiful song and makes me all happy and stuff inside. Lyrics like: “‘From the first day you came into my life/My time ticks around you/But then I need your voice/As key to unlock all the love thats trapped in of me” just makes me go all “nyawwww!!!” and turns me into one of those annoying love-obsessed morons. Even though I don’t have love in my life, this song still rocks. A part of me thinks I never really will find love like this but hey, it’s nice to have hope. But if anyone out there does love me…it’s time.

Song 25: A Song That You Want To Play At Your Funeral

This song is more of a love song than anything tbh. But it still makes me cry. I first heard it on Scrubs and I was all OMG THIS IS SO SAD IMMA DIE D: I actually have a list of all the songs I want at my funeral. That sounds mega depressing, but if I died tomorrow, people will be all “OMG WHAT SONGS SHALL I PUT ON THE PLAYLIST AT HER WAKE?!” I’ll name a few:

Eric Clapton – Tears in Heaven

Everly Brothers – All I Have To Do Is Dream

Frank Turner – Long Live The Queen

Green Day – Whatsername

Yeah, I’m cool.

Song 26: A Song That Makes You Laugh

I think this song makes me laugh because of all the swearing and the general hatefulness of this song. It’s just fucking hilarious. To be honest, most Blink 182 songs make me laugh. Fuck A Dog, What’s My Age Again?, I Won’t Be Home For Christmas and Family Reunion to name a few. It’s only 43 seconds long, but first time I heard it, I sat there guffawing at the undiluted brillance and peppiness of this song.

Song 27: A Song That You Wish That You Could Play

That intro is just fucking insane. Some guitar players might be all “Oh, that’s easy I can play it blindfolded!” I sit in awe in most of Avenged Sevenfold’s songs mostly because the solo’s are insane because they’re mega speedy and I could never play them in a million years. Dayum.

Song 28: A Song That Makes You Feel Guilty

Ahh, John Lennon. Such an amazing person who brought out this inspirational piece of music. It really does make me feel guilty. It makes me feel guilty that sometimes I feel depressed even though I’ve got so much to be thankful for if that makes sense. I have few friends and family who mean the world to me, I’ve never wanted for anything in my life. This song just makes you contemplate the less-fortunate and makes me feel mega guilty.

Song 29: A Song From Your Childhood

This song just makes me think of happier times when I was a little kid and used to dance in my living room like a spaz. It’s such a happy and summer-y tune, and I still listen to it to this day. Something about the pure cheese and boppy tune just reminds me of happier times when all I had to worry about was how to wear my hair that day (ponytail or some little bow?) and when the next episode of Miami7 (anyone remember that?!) was going to come on. Those were the days.

Song 30: Your Favourite Song This Time Last Year

This was an easy one for me to find. All I had to look at was my ‘Songs of the Month’ from that month and I found it. It’s good when you keep a record of these things, or I wouldn’t have remembered whatsoever. I haven’t actually heard this song in a long time, and now I’ve just listened to it and remembered it’s awesomeness. Paramore are such an amazing band that I haven’t had the pleasure of seeing live yet (and since no one will go with me, I probably never will. Unless I go on my own. Which I’m contemplating) Only problem with Paramore is that I feel like I can’t sing along. My singing voice is just incredibly out of tune and I sound like a pig squealing when I sing.

30 Song Challenge … in my own little way :) PART 2

A few days ago, I did a blog post about the whole ’30 Day Song Challenge’ that’s plagueing FaceBook at the moment. But, i put my own little twist on it and instead of crunching up everyone’s news feeds with songs and not being able to give a full description of why I chose the song etc, I decided to put it in blog form So here’s part 2:

 

Song 11: A Song From Your Favourite Band

For anyone who reads this blog and knows me in person will know that my favourite band is, and probably always will be Green Day. So here’s one of my favourite songs by them, a song that I relate to and just has an incredibly easy but effective riff. To me, this song just crams the whole in-love-with-someone-but-they-don’t-know-and-it’s-all-you-think-about into 3 and a half minutes. Such an awesome tune that not a lot of people know, and I hope you all enjoy the awesomeness.

Song 12: A Song From A Band You Hate

I find nothing worse than listening to this type of music. I just hate it. I don’t mind a little bit of screamo, Avenged Sevenfold and Bullet For My Valentine are about as far as I go, but this is just unbearable. I think I’d rather listen to Justin Beiber or Rebecca Black than listen to this dross.

Song 13: A Song That Is A Guilty Pleasure

I love Glee. It is a guilty pleasure of mine. Others slam Glee and say it’s stupid, the singing is unbearable, it’s cheesy yadda yadda yadda and in all honesty, I love it. It’s a feel-good programme and nothing’s better than when you’re having a rough day, and you turn on Glee and just get all happy from the pure cheese and mind-numbing storylines. I have to physically restrain myself from shouting ‘LIVIN’ IN A LONELY WORLD’ when someone sings ‘Just a small town girl…” It’s such a feel-good track, how can anyone not love this song?

Song 14: A Song That No One Would Expect You To Love

I guess it might seem a tad too R&B/Hip-Hop-ish for my liking, but I actually love this song. It was one of the songs that I was kinda brought up on, many times did I see my Dad on a Sunday and he would blast this out and I’d sing along quite happily to the chorus, not knowing what the song was even about. Aah, happy times

Song 15: A Song That Describes You

This song has so many poignant lyrics and I can’t help but think THAT’S ME, THAT’S MEEEEE! I was going to put Burnout by Green Day, but decided it was a little GD overkill. So here’s I’m Gay by one of my favourite bands, Bowling For Soup. This song is just so fucking happy with the chorus: “Don’t hate us coz we’re happy/Don’t hate us coz we’re beautiful/Don’t hate us if we make you smile or if we go the extra mile/To make someone feel betteron a really shitty day/And if you’re hearing what I’m saying then I want to hear you say, “I’m gay!” It’s such a chirpy and jubilant song and makes you realize:

It’s perfectly fine to be a happy individual.

Song 16: A Song You Used To Love But Now Hate

I used to absolutely in love with this song. When I first heard this, I thought “aww it’s such a cute song, LOVE!” Now I kinda hate this song. It’s just played on the radio over and over and I just think “SHUTUP WE GET THE IDEA! SHE’S BEAUTIFUL AND HAS LIPS YOU WANNA KISS ALL DAY…WHO CARES?!” I downloaded his album, and every song is exactly the same. Boy loves girl so much he would die for her and it’s all lovey-dovey and just pure nonsense. His girlfriend must be so fed up of him keep singing songs about her. I know I would.

Song 17: A Song You Hear Often On The Radio

I used to kinda like this song, until the radio just overplayed it. I hear it all the fucking time and now it’s whiny and just makes me wanna stamp on the radio. Considering when I’m at work, the radio is on all day, at the end of the day I just feel like I’ve heard the song a million times during that day. It just winds me up now.

Song 18: A Song You Wish You Heard On The Radio

It’s kinda sad that I wasn’t alive in the 70′s coz then I could live in the heyday of the English punk era. If the radio station at work played this, I would be beyond ecstatic. Like, wow. And what would make it even more great is if they played it on the day of the Royal Wedding. Maybe I should hijack their studios and play it on repeat on the 29th April…

Song 19: A Song From Your Favourite Album

The first song on my favourite album of all-time, Green Day’s Dookie. This lyric just sums me up in21 words: “I declare I don’t care no more/I’m burning up and out and growing bored in my smoked out boring room” Such an amazing song that gets me in a good kinda angry/excited/happy mood.

Song 20: A Song That You Listen To When You’re Angry

This song is just pure anger and I love it to pieces. When it comes on my iPod, I’m just like FUCK YEAHHHH! Hayley Williams has a brilliant voice, and the lyrics just relate to me so much when I think about friends that I’ve lost and/or losing, and family that I’ve alienated myself from: Well you treat me just like another stranger/Well it’s nice to meet you, sir/I guess I’ll go/I best be on my way out/Ignorance is your new best friend.

30 Song Challenge … in my own little way :) PART 1

Ok, so on Facebook there’s this group going round called the ’30 Day Song Challenge’. Basically, you join the group and for the next month you post different songs according to the rules. For example, day 12: a song from a band you hate. You get the idea. I was thinking about doing it but decided that it really is annoying when people spam up your newsfeed with shit like:

‘OMG LOOK AT THIS PICTURE OF A WALRUS EATING A MANGO!! <insert ugly picture of a walrus> ISN’T IT DELIGHTFUL?!!? I LOVE LIFE!’

so I decided against it. In fairness, I do tend to spam up people’s newsfeeds by promoting this blog but that’s not the point. Anyway, I decided that I would do 2 posts of the 30 Day Song Challenge, but actually only take a few hours writing it. That way, people can read this post if they want to, not because they generally have to, and also I would just forget to post everyday, aaaand I get to write a little description with each song.

Song 01: Your Favorite Song

This was a tad tricky choosing this, but I decided I’d go with the song that makes me jump up and down like crazy, and makes me tremendously happy. Nothing makes me happier than listening to Green Day playing this highly energetic and catchy song (especially live). The song has the right amount of punkiness flavour added to it with the crunchy and palm-muted guitar, a little bass solo chucked in here and there, crazy drums and the unique-yet-whiny voice of Billie Joe Armstring. With lyrics like “It all keeps adding up/I think I’m cracking up/Am I just paranoid or am I just stoned?’, they capture everyone’s feelings of confusion, anxiety and doubt about one’s sanity.

Song 02: Your Least Favourite Song

I actually cringe at the fact that I’m posting this atrocity on my blog. It’s awful-ness is making me shudder. I discovered this horrid song after it being a trending topic on Twitter for well over a week. I then watched it and at first, couldn’t listen to the full “song”. I then wanted to listen to the whole thing just to see how really shit it could possibly get. It did not disappoint. But I do have to thank Rebecca Black, because I never thought I’d want to punch a song in the face before. I also never thought I’d want to kick a “pop-star” in the nads as much as I do Justin Beiber, but here comes Rebecca Black with this hilarious abomination. The lyrics are tremendously stupid: “Kicking in the front seat/Sitting in the back seat/Gotta make my mind up/Which seat can I take?” I mean, it sounds like a thirteen year old wrote this song. Oh, wait, it is a song a thirteen year old wrote. She also seems to possess the inability to use correct grammar: “We, we, we so excited/We so excited/We gonna have a ball today. No, Rebecca, just…no.

Song 03: A Song That Make You Happy

I heard this song after a friend from Australia sent me it. As soon as the trumpets and funky drums came in, I knew I was in love. This song just fills me with so much happiness, I can’t help but grin at this entertaining ska track. It’s such a shame that literally no one knows this song, and no one else will smile and dance the way I do when I hear this incredible piece of music.

Song 04: A Song That Makes You Sad

Such a beautiful song that I love with all my heart. The melancholy piano chords combined with David Gray’s distinctive voice and enchanting lyrics makes this song one of my favourites of all time.

Song 05: A Song That Reminds You Of Someone

This song reminds me of a friend of mine because, well, she’s in love with this man in a weird way. I don’t know why, but each to their own. This song reminds me of her because everytime this comes on in any pub or club, we squeal and dance. Normally if we’re drunk, because I don’t have the confidence to dance whatsoever unless I’m trashed.

Song 06: A Song That Reminds You Of Somewhere

This song reminds me of my friend’s house. When I go round there, we turn on a little music and have a good ol’ dance (normally due to intense sugar consumption via Relentless). This song just reminds me of his house due to the hilarious dance he did at 0:50 with the trumpet break. Don’t mess with the mess around.

Song 07: A Song That Reminds You Of A Certain Event

I WAS THERE! I WAS THERE! HEAR ME SCREAMING?! NO?! Well, that was because there was 20,000 people there. Also, in the last 2 minutes of this song, instead of screaming because I was happy to be there and Green Day were right in front of my face, I actually lost my shoe. So whilst others were going “AHH GREEN DAY! YAY!” I was going “WHERE’S MY FUCKING SHOE?!?!?!?!”

Song 08: A Song That You Know All The Words To

Ok, the majority of this song is just ‘I SLEPT WITH TERRY!’ but it still rocks. To be honest, this was a bit silly trying to choose a song because the majority of my iTunes library, I know all the words to. Silly.

Song 09: A Song That You Can Dance To

Well, this song I not so much dance to as mosh and jump around to. Also, I cannot dance for the life of me so this song just lets me unleash my inner dance-demon. Listening to this song, it’s hard not to shout along to the lyrics and just generally have a good time. Many a time have I turned this track on just to bounce around, scream along and get incredibly out of breath in my front room. I welcome an audience to laugh and point, I don’t care.

Song 10: A Song That Makes You Fall Asleep

This song is just so beautiful, I could listen to it for ages. When I first read what the 10th song is supposed to be, my first thought was a really boring-ass song that is so darn boring it makes you want to die. But then I thought of a song that gently rocks me to sleep with it’s melody. So I chose this song.

 

Part 2 coming soon.

Life is really fucking good right now.

The title says it all really. I haven’t been this happy in a long time.

I haven’t blogged in a while mainly because I kinda lost track of my life and had nothing to write about that was interesting. Sounds pretty dumb but it’s true. My life was kinda stuck in a rut, and now I’m finally starting to make sense and suddenly there’s a light at this very long and dark tunnel. That sounds really emo, but it’s true.

So what has changed?

Well, firstly, I got accepted into university properly. I knew my year had been deferred but I wasn’t convinced that I was actually going to be attending September ’11. I got a confirmation letter through the other day and I couldn’t wipe that silly grin of mine off my face all day. That feeling of not knowing what was going on in my life and my doubts of what the future will hold for me were suddenly lifted and now I know what, at least, I’ll be doing for the next 3 years of my life. For a few months, I had my doubts. “What if I’m stuck in this shitty job for the rest of my life?” “If I don’t get into uni, what then?” All I knew for sure is that if I didn’t get into university, I was screwed. Well, not entirely screwed, maybe I’d apply for temp jobs at magazines, or a local paper and try to make my way up the ladder that way. But, things all turned out for the best and I feel like a massive weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I’ve applied for student finance (which, btw are a massive pain in the ass and deserve a kick up the butt. With a coconut) and now all I need to do is send of my mum’s P60 to calculate how much loan and grant I’m entitled to blah blah blah. Then, I have to apply for accommodation and all that jazz. Then, I guess I’ll have to start packing up my stuff (not until August time really) and getting ready to leave this shitty town. I will miss my home very much, and my dogs (sounds stupid but true) and my mum, who’s a huge part of my life but at the end of the day, where I’m going is only a 40 minute train journey away. So anytime I feel homesick, I can just jump on a train home for a bit.

Another thing that’s changed is my general outlook on life. Before, I was kinda depressed. I had a person in my life who I  really thought it was going to work with, but it turns out, it didn’t. We didn’t go out long, but it meant a lot to me. Turns out that person is a bastard. But hey, ho, it had me depressed for a bit and doubting myself. My main question was “why? why can’t I get a boyfriend and be normal like a normal person? Why are people just not interested in me?” And you know what? I don’t think those things anymore. I really couldn’t give a shit. As long as I’m happy in who I am, that’s all that matters. So what if I don’t have a boyfriend? Who fucking cares? The only person that cares at the end of the day is me, and tbh I’m not really that bothered anymore. I’m just gonna let nature take its course. I’m not gonna go and get intimate with some random guy just to feel wanted, because at the end of the day that’ll just make me a whore, and that feeling of being wanted lasts around an hour or two, and then you’d feel like shit about yourself again.

The thing that’s helped me a lot in this miserable time of my life is my friends. For a while, I thought “fuck, who do I actually have?” And you know what? It doesn’t matter how many friends you have, but how much they mean to you. When I heard one of my best friends got accepted into uni made me feel so happy it was unreal. Knowing that I’m gonna have him in my life for the next 3 years is too awesome for words. I’m even reconnecting with kinda lost friends that I haven’t talked to for a while, and I’ve sorta got back in touch and I kinda forgot what I lost.

What else is making me feel this fucking ecstatic? Potentially making a music demo, having a song written about me, getting a tax rebate of possibly £150, the summery weather, and buying Blink 182 tickets soon. That’s making me hella happy. Too happy for words :’)

All I can say is that this year is going to be fucking awesome.

Oh, hello, neglected blog!

I haven’t blogged in over a month! Jeeeez. I’d like to say that since my last blog post I’ve been so busy with my awesome life, I just haven’t had time to blog. But I haven’t. Reasons I haven’t blogged:

1) My internet being slow and not loading. TalkTalk are useless bastards who need a slap and a kick up the arse.

2) My keyboard is failing to co-operate with me. As I type, it’s getting bloody annoying to type. The a, r, d, g and n buttons refuse to work, and my s button has actually fallen off. So I’ve copied and pasted ardgs and everytime I need one of those letters, I have to delete the one’s I don’t want. Pain. In. The. Butt. I need to get it fixed. Soon.

3) Writer’s block. I haven’t felt the need to blog as I haven’t really had anything productive to say.

 

So what have I been up to? Well everyday is either:

Get up at 9.20am, make a cuppa tea, put make up on etc

Get bus at 10.20am, sit on the bus for 10 mins, walk 20 mins to work. Sometimes, when I’m feeling adventurous, I go into the petrol station and buy some chewing gum and a can of Relentless >.>

Work till 5ish

Walk back to bus stop, get on bus at whatever time it decides to come

Get home, cuppa tea, sit down, have dinner, cuppa tea and watch either ‘Friends’, ‘Malcolm In The Middle’ or ‘Scrubs’

Cuppa tea, make my way up to my room, play guitar, tea, listen to music, spend an ungodly amount of time on Facebook and Twitter (only sites my Internet will load)

Bath, repeat above, bed at 2-ish.

OR

Wake up at 12pm, cuppa tea

Clean kitchen and hoover

Cuppa tea, watch tv, play guitar, tea, listen to music, daydream, Facebook, Twitter

Cuppa tea, dinner, and watch either ‘Friends’, ‘Malcolm In The Middle’ or ‘Scrubs’

Cuppa tea, make my way up to my room, play guitar, tea, listen to music, spend an ungodly amount of time on Facebook and Twitter

Bath, repeat above, bed at 2-ish.

 

And that is my life atm. Boring as hell. I would say I go out with friends and crap but I have no money. You may say “But, you spend all day doing nothing, why have you still got no money?” Well, I get paid pittance, and after housekeeping, taxi from work, bus fayre to and from work and such, I’m lucky to have anything. And my friends? Well I’m severely lacking in that department atm. I never see a few who have started to forget me due to new people they’re with, or some the only days is when I’m not. All of this has left me wondering,

“Is it worth it?”

The only thing that’s keeping me going is knowing September is getting closer everyday to relieve me from this rut I’m stuck in.

Dosh?! Readies?! WONGA!

All hail the Wonga-Man!

lol at that stupid advert.

At this very moment in time, I am extremely proud of myself. Why? I hear you ask. Well, as those who read my blog know, I have a small spending and shopping addiction. But it’s all changed! I’m a changed woman! Well, sorta…

I’ve barely spent a penny on myself since Christmas. Ok, well that’s a lie I have spent a little on myself. And judging by the look of my bank account, it doesn’t look too healthy atm. And guess what I bought in the January sales?

FUCK ALL.

I haven’t bought anything in the January sales. Admittedly this is because I haven’t seen anything that has caught my eye. The only reason my bank account looks a bit sorry for itself is that my latest tattoo pretty much cleaned me out of dosh.

In the past week, all I’ve bought is:

• Rose belly bar from eBay £2.50 (didn’t really need it but its so pretty!)
• Lightning bolt necklace from eBay £3.18 (same reason as above)
• £40 cash out of an ATM which was used for deposit for tattoo (£20), cab fayre for Friday night work (£5), bus fayre (£5), cab fayre to work (£5) and the leftover fiver I kept for tattoo scheduled for later
• £10.80 at Costa Coffee (what can I say, I love coffee. But I also bought a couple for a friend)
• Nicole Scherzinger – Poison mp3 from Amazon £0.89 (such a tune. screw the haters)
• £25 housekeeping (mandatory)
• £30 ATM for tattoo
• Filter tips and Red Bull from petrol station £2.45 (I run out of filters, and I didn’t sleep the night before so this was a necessity)
• Pick of Destiny DVD from Amazon £2.78 (I think this is pretty self-explanatory why I had to buy this)

and I have £9.65 left :/ This list may seem like a lot of wonga spent on crap, but I’m so dang proud of myself for knowing exactly what’s going out of my account and where it’s gone. Countless times have I logged onto my internet banking and gone “Where has all my money gone?! Ahh…costa coffee, MAC, Boots, some other random shit…” But at least I’m finally keeping track of my finances a lot more.

I’m now being all frugal and shit. When I pick up something in a shop, here is how the convo in my brain pans out:

“OMG LOOK A REALLY AWESOME TOP! ONLY A FIVER, BARGAIN!”

“Yes, but do you really need it?”

“Well, yeah, coz it’s awesome and I’m gonna look so damn cool.”

“But you’ve got another top that’s exactly the same at home that you’ve never even taken the price tags off. Also, you have no money.”

“Oh yeah. I’ll wear the other top instead”

See, a few months or so ago, I wouldn’t have said that last sentence. I woulda made some bullshit excuse to myself and gone and bought it anyway, regardless. This just goes to show how much I’ve changed

My brand new look on shopping might also have something to do with the fact that I’m ridiculously low on money atm. My shifts have been cut at work which means less money going into my account, which means I need to cut down on spending big time.

So wish me luck on my continuous shopping ban!